I know you all remember that jingle from the Toys ‘R Us commercials. It was so catchy and we’d all sing it at the top of our lungs (especially around the holiday season). It was more recently covered by Jamie Foxx impersonating John Legend.
Yeah, he nailed it
This past weekend was one of reflection for me. I had my makeup appointment for with my therapist and spent the rest of the weekend relaxing and taking care of myself. I cooked, did laundry, read and planned out the rest of the month in my planner. I called my friend/play big brother when I was filling in my planner and he made the comment that I was “acting like an adult”. We laughed and I even told him that I was about to put on some smooth jazz. I felt like a real grown-up y’all, and that was the first time in a week that that’s happened.
I’ve lived on my own since 2013, been paying my own bills and even throwing extra money down on my student loans so I can get those paid off sooner rather than later. I’m flourishing in a career that has nothing to do with what I studied in school; but I’m the youngest in my office and that coupled with the fact that I didn’t come from a project/property management background like most of my co-workers lead to feelings of “playing dress up” at times. My parents have always taught me to be confident in myself and my skills/talents and most times I am, but there were a few times last week (and other times in the past) when the phrases “how long have you worked in project management?” or “what do you mean you don’t know this?” were thrown out and they made me feel lower than low. All the confidence that I walked in the door with was gone and I wanted to run home. I even wished that I was a kid again and tell my parents to let them handle the situation for me.
I guess I can’t have it both ways, can’t have my cake and eat it too. The perks like having your own place and all the freedom that comes with it, far outweigh the cons. Yeah, paying bills suck but knowing that I’m establishing my credit and standing on my own is pretty awesome. As Britney said, I’m not a girl but not yet a woman. I’m constantly growing and changing, and with that change comes a bit of discomfort. Whether that discomfort be seeing my bank account dwindle when it’s time to pay my monthly bills or hearing certain remarks in the office, it comes with the territory and I’m just going to have to learn to get used to it.
How do y’all deal with the struggle that is adulting? Comment below and let me know!
